Life.....

How can so many people be so sure what they want in life or who they want to be with for the rest of their life? I thought I knew what I wanted to be or who I wanted to be with and where my life was headed, but damn did college throw me a curve ball. I have met people who I wish the one I was with was more like. I have learned that some of the things my ex-girlfriends did or do I miss and wish I still had. I have learned that what I want to do with my life is not always easy but if you truly want it you will push through. I have learned that I am not totally he best at managing my time. And I have also learned that people are not always accepting of others or understanding of other problems in life and could care less about what their problems are and only need to focus on themselves. I have learned that what I think is common courtesy, is not always what other people think. And the final thing I have learned is that I am definitely meant to be a family man and a dad. I love being in a relationship, caring about another person, helping them always, being there for them to fall back on, and always having someone you can talk to. I know that’s what my life is calling me to be and to do. I honestly think that’s the only thing I am sure of right now. I don’t know if I want to be an engineer, where I want to live, who I want to be with for life, where I want my life to take me, and what I want to get out of life.
When I look at life I enjoy hanging out with others and watching movies, going bowling, walking around, playing pool, playing basketball, and just chilling in general. But I have never been the partying type. I don’t think I ever went to a party in high school and I am ok with that. I mean I went to school dances and DJed a lot of stuff and had a blast doing that, but I have never been the type of person to go to a party without a point other than to drink or whatever. I would much rather hang with 5-10 friends I am close with and watch a movie or sit around and talk about life. Same with someone who I am dating, in that when we hang out id rather it be with a small group of people or alone watching a movie or talking. Not going to a party to get fucked up or 2 do whatever. I definitely have to say my favorite thing to do for a date is to go to the lake by my house and walk around it at about 12am. With all the stars out and the silence, it is just so calming.
So as to where I want life to take me. I want life to take me in the direction of a happy wife, a few kids, healthy family, and a healthy bank account. I want to live in a small house that is just big enough to fit my kids, my wife and I, and the 2 dogs I want. I don’t want too big of a house because it allows a family to grow distant and I want a family where everyone is close to each other. Like my house where every bedroom has 2 people in it and we have 5 dogs who all sleep in the kitchen at night. We are all close because we have to be and now love being close to each other. This is the complete opposite of one of my friends from home where the dad is loaded and each kid has their own room with a plasma, DVD player, and either an xbox or playstation 2/3. I asked him and he hates it because everyone just goes to their rooms and hangs there. They never really hang out and never really have family dinners. I want to have family dinner ever night and possibly a family breakfast every morning. I know it gets hard to do as everyone gets older, but I want to do it as long as I can.
So I know what some of you may be thinking because its I get it a lot. You thinking “damn, this kid thinks about the future a lot!” and yes, that’s true. I love to think about the future abd what I will be, who I will be, and what I will have. I also like to think about how I am going to help others and show others that I am a caring person/helpful person. I want to be the person who helps other any and every way I can. But I wont blog about that again. I already talked about that in a different blog. So anyway, I would say 85% of the thinking I do in a day is about the future, and the other 15% is about what I can do today or this week to improve the future.
One other random thing is that I want to be close to my family, both distance and relationship wise, because I want them to come visit a lot. I don’t like big parties, as I said earlier, but I do like family gatherings and hanging out at the house. And I want to be close to both of my best friends for life. I want to live near Stephen and Spencer and hang out all the time until we die.
So what are you thinking right now? You thinking about your future too? I have a feeling after reading this you too will wonder where life is going to take you and who life is going to keep you close to.

What imiss and wish iha time to do....

So as most of you know I was a DJ at my high school and that I have been obsessed with music ever since like the seventh grade when I got my first Ipod. I found that you can say so much by what song you play in certain situations or by what songs you put on a CD for someone. Music sends a huge message and can also set the mood for certain events. Like in any love story movie, they don’t play I like big butts by Sir-Mix-A lot during a love scene. That would just be dumb. They would play something like the song Everything by Michael Buble. Music adds so much to life and I don’t think I could live without it! I would have to say that my dream job would to be a professional DJ for all kinds of events because I get so much joy out if getting others to day and have fun and let loose! The only thing stopping me from my dream is the fact that the odds of you getting a really well paying DJ job are slim. I want to have a job that makes bank and then in my free time ill spend time DJing things. the only thing stopping me from DJing more right now is all the work being an engineer takes....

Dreams and Life...wis those mean the same things....

In my life I want to have a loving wife, a happy family, nice cars, small house on a big lot, nice boat, atvs, and anything I want to keep my family happy and active. I don’t want my kids to sit around the house and not go outside. I want my house to be the house my kids friends want to come to and chill, that way I know they are all safe. I dream of giving back to my parents something to show them I appreciate what they have done all my life. My parents have tried to give me everything to be happy in life. They paid for my education, bought me a car, feed me, give me a place to sleep, and they love me and I want to repay them in some way. So I have been thinking these past few years and I decided what I will get them. My mom and dad are both big car people and because they are I have become a huge fan of cars as well. So I thought I would do something involving cars to make it unique with us and when they see it it will always remind them of me. My mom has always wanted a new mustang and so when I have the money I am going to get here a fully loaded mustang for her to drive and have fun in. and my dad I think would enjoy the new dodge challenger that came out, so I would get him that fully loaded for him to have fun in. I want them both to have fun as soon as I can afford to give it to them because my entire life they have worked their asses off to pay for everything I have. Therefore I want to pay for part of their life and make it so they dont have to worry about things for a while…..

Dream Cars

I was bored the other day in my room and decided to look up the dream cars I want to have when I start my life. Damn, I am an expensive person! Every car I looked at or built online and priced came to a minimum of $52,000 all the way up to $108,000. The cars I want to have are a fully loaded dodge viper, fully loaded chevrolet suburban, and a Mercedes convertible. But those would just be my cars. I would still need cars for my wife and kids. but I also thought about y I would need all these cars….and how I could help out my kids….so I thought of this. My kids get a cheap car to drive in college and when they go to college freshman year they will leave the car home with me. They are then allowed to bring their car to school sophomore year to help with getting around and make life a little easier. After their sophomore year, granted they are doing well, they can chose to keep they car they have or they can give that back to me and pick any of the cars I own at the time and it is theirs. Any car at all that they want will be theirs. I got this idea because my parents have an deal with me, as they had with my older sister, that after my sophomore year I get the car they bought me my junior year of high school. I get to have the car and its all mine. But the deal is that I have to pay them back for however much they paid for the car. This works out well because if I don’t have the money one month, I will not get killed with late fees. I will simply pay them when I have it. I like this plan because it helps me to get my life started and to get around. I would do something similar for my kids, like I just described above. And I don’t want people to get me wrong; I don’t want to be some rich dick that everyone hates. If I end up spending my money on others to help them and end up driving crappy cars and living in a shitty house, then I will still be happy in life. My number one goal in life is to help others make it through life with a smile on their face, rather than I screw people over so I have the most money in the world. I could care less how much money I have. I just know that if I have a lot of money, it will be easier for me to help others and not worry about it or worry I am not going to be able to pay my own bills.

What else am I going to talk about?

So this post is just going to be about something going on in my life. I have nothing else to write about in these blogs!! I am running out of things to talk about! ! I have never been much of a writer and now I have to write 1000 words every week? I am going to run out of things quick. I will admit this is helping me write though. It is helping more with my casual writing and not so much with my formal writing. But that’s ok, cause I am an engineer and don’t need to write very much…..hopefully! :-p well that’s it for this week! Ill be back nextr week to force out another 1000 words for you! Peace! J

Galileo/Homework

So as some of you may know, I am a part of the Galileo living program here at Virginia Tech and I want to talk about that for a few minutes. I want to say how little of a life I am able to have because of all the homework and stuff we have to do in this program. Plus on top of that I have so much homework in all my other classes that it is just kind of overwhelming. I am trying to balance both my academic and social life. It is a lot harder than I thought it would be. The previous weekend I sat around and did a lot of homework, and I didn’t really go out much. I felt very anti-social. So this past weekend I decided to go out and have fun and see people and hang out with people and see the football game and just relax. And do you want to know where that got me? Well it got me here, stuck in my room on a Sunday afternoon doing nothing but homework basically all day. I went to 10 am mass, went to get a quick bite to eat with the friends I went to mass with, and got back to my room about 12. I have been in my room since doing homework. And will be long after this is posted because I still need to finish up my English paper, Galileo homework, engineering homework, and calculus homework. Like I said, I am so far behind now for having a decent social life this weekend. Ugh, why does college have to be like this? Why cant we just take classes a little at a time and do well in them? Oh, right, because life isn’t like that. Life is always busy and we will always be running around with too many things to do. I guess I will push through it now and get on with life so that maybe later in life I will have time to sit around and relax more.

What do you think about when you hear this four letter word?

Not having English class all this past week has been one of the best things that could have happen to me! It was such a refreshing thing knowing that I had an extra hour or so to do whatever I wanted to do. I would take a nap, do laundry, or even do some more homework that I had for other classes. I managed to actually write 2 papers this week for English because I got halfway through my first paper and couldn’t quite finish it. I talked about how me and my friends use the term “That’s What She Said” in basically all the conversations we have in a day. And they are always really good ones too. But I ran into a problem. I had nothing else to say. I had all my thoughts down and needed 600 more words. So I decided to rewrite my paper on something I think you could talk someone to death with. I chose to talk about love. The simple four letter word which we all use multiple times in a day to describe so much. We use it to describe how we feel about a sandwich, movie, friend, family, driving, a sport, walking, running, etc, etc. the list goes on and on. What do u think about when u think of the word love? Do u think about someone close to you in your life? Do you think about a family member? Friend? What? When I think about the word love I think of my family. And when I say family, I mean more than just my mom, my dad, and siblings. I live in a house with 8 other people and 5 dogs. I live with my mom, dad, two sisters, one brother, grandma, grandpa, and aunt. Having so many people in the house always makes for an exciting life. There is always someone in the house and always someone you can talk to. This is what I think of when I think about love. Everyone in the family loves each other and is willing to help each other no matter what the situation. My aunt, Kathy, has always been there for me and I am always there for her too.This one time, Kathy and I both had a rough day and we were both home. I was doing homework for school the next day and she was online dealing with some banking issues. She ended up coming into the office where I was working and asking me if I wanted to get some pancakes at IHOP to just get away from the house for a little and relax. It being around 11pm and me having a bunch of work to do I had to think about it for a second. And of course, me being a procrastinator, said yes immediately! We ended going to IHOP and getting a ton of food, pigging out, and talking till about 2am. It was so much fun! So I guess this is what I think about when I think about love. I think about family always being there for each other and having each other’s backs when they need something.

LOUD or soft music?

So something I am sure everyone has noticed about people is to whether some like to blast music and be obnoxious with it or just have the volume high enough to hear it. I am one of those people who drive around with all the windows down in the car and the volume extremely loud. Usually my family knows when I am puling in my driveway because they heard music playing. I guess that comes from Djing. Cuz when I am driving around I notice people car-dance or smile or wave or whatever and those are usually people who are my own age or around it. I also get the reaction of the head shake and being yelled at by older people that I am a reckless teenager. I don’t consider my music to be as dangerous as the people who drive and try to yell at me at the same time and end up swerving. Those are the people who are reckless.

SICK BASS or little bass in music?

I am not going to lie the more bass you can pump from a system, the happier I am going to be. I love to feel the rumble from the bass of a song. And the reason I mention this is cuz I live on the 7th floor of lee and its all guys…so basically we all have a lot of electronics. And one thing I have noticed is that having a sick system will attract people into your room to see what the hell you are packing. I am in the process of making my own system to try and shake the hell out of my floor, but it may not be ready until next year. So don’t be expecting to see it anytime soon.

eye issues / i dont understand certain people...

So this past week, as most people in my English class know, I was in the hospital because I got an infection in the tissue around my eye. I am not quite sure how I got it, but I also had this problem sophomore year in high school. Because I am a diabetic, my immune system is not as strong as other people and it doesn’t help that im allergic to all antibiotic except one which only come in an I.V. form. So anyway, I had to have my mom come get me Wednesday, spent Thursday in the hospital for the infection and came back 1am Friday morning. Something I noticed while dealing with the insurance company, the doctors, and the nurses that people there, unless you are in the pediatric section of the hospital, don’t give a shit. They could care less most of the time. The doctor gave me the option of being admitted to the hospital out of the e.r. or to just get a prescription and go on my way. I asked the doctor for a prescription, and knowing my insurance would need him to call to clear me for the medicine, I also asked him to call the insurance and let them know. He wouldn’t respond to me asking with anything except “I don’t do that. You need to have your primary care doctor call them.” Now y would I have a doctor who didn’t write the prescription and didn’t see me for the infection call the insurance? Does that make any sense? Not to me it doesn’t. My mother and I continued to argue with him that he needed to do it, but still refused. We spent an hour there arguing and finally left. We ended up calling the doctor I had seen earlier that morning before being sent to the e.r. and asked her if she would call my insurance to help me out. She sadi she would happily do anything needed to get me the prescription. The doctor and my mother then spent the next 6 hours fighting the insurance company to clear me for the prescription. I feel like the only reason the insurance didn’t want me to get it was because the prescription of 20 pills is worth $2000. So finally I got the pills and now I am taking them and I am getting better each day. I am glad that everything worked out, but it was a pain in the ass getting here. So basically I wrote this whole story to talk about how some people in the world are so preoccupied with doing as little as possible in life and making sure they focus on themselves, that people don’t get proper treatment and people get screwed in the end. If the doctor hadn’t been willing to do something for me that wasn’t even her job I would still be suffering from the infection. Its people who don’t look to help people in their life who piss me off and make me even surer of what I want to do with mine. I want to do nothing but help people with any problem they may be having. I want to be the guy everyone comes to for help and I want to be able to help them. I don’t see myself doing anything else in life and it is hard for me to image being any other way! I don’t know....maybe that’s just me….

Weak Ass Funiture!

So this is going to be a short post, but is anyone else having a problem with their VT furniture breaking in their room? Because I have already broken two of my desk chairs and I am wondering if I am the only one doing this. The first one I messed up pretty bad and this second one is only slightly cracked. I swear I am not doing anything crazy. I sit in it and slightly rock back in it, like it is made to do. And somehow I crack the back of it. But at the same time, my roommate leans way back in his so it is about to fall back and his chair is in great condition! I don’t get it! oh, and most of my floor knows that I broke it because the other day I mentioned it and I got this reaction. “You’re the kid who broke his chair?! No way! How?!” Someone please comment of this as to what I should do!