Life.....

How can so many people be so sure what they want in life or who they want to be with for the rest of their life? I thought I knew what I wanted to be or who I wanted to be with and where my life was headed, but damn did college throw me a curve ball. I have met people who I wish the one I was with was more like. I have learned that some of the things my ex-girlfriends did or do I miss and wish I still had. I have learned that what I want to do with my life is not always easy but if you truly want it you will push through. I have learned that I am not totally he best at managing my time. And I have also learned that people are not always accepting of others or understanding of other problems in life and could care less about what their problems are and only need to focus on themselves. I have learned that what I think is common courtesy, is not always what other people think. And the final thing I have learned is that I am definitely meant to be a family man and a dad. I love being in a relationship, caring about another person, helping them always, being there for them to fall back on, and always having someone you can talk to. I know that’s what my life is calling me to be and to do. I honestly think that’s the only thing I am sure of right now. I don’t know if I want to be an engineer, where I want to live, who I want to be with for life, where I want my life to take me, and what I want to get out of life.
When I look at life I enjoy hanging out with others and watching movies, going bowling, walking around, playing pool, playing basketball, and just chilling in general. But I have never been the partying type. I don’t think I ever went to a party in high school and I am ok with that. I mean I went to school dances and DJed a lot of stuff and had a blast doing that, but I have never been the type of person to go to a party without a point other than to drink or whatever. I would much rather hang with 5-10 friends I am close with and watch a movie or sit around and talk about life. Same with someone who I am dating, in that when we hang out id rather it be with a small group of people or alone watching a movie or talking. Not going to a party to get fucked up or 2 do whatever. I definitely have to say my favorite thing to do for a date is to go to the lake by my house and walk around it at about 12am. With all the stars out and the silence, it is just so calming.
So as to where I want life to take me. I want life to take me in the direction of a happy wife, a few kids, healthy family, and a healthy bank account. I want to live in a small house that is just big enough to fit my kids, my wife and I, and the 2 dogs I want. I don’t want too big of a house because it allows a family to grow distant and I want a family where everyone is close to each other. Like my house where every bedroom has 2 people in it and we have 5 dogs who all sleep in the kitchen at night. We are all close because we have to be and now love being close to each other. This is the complete opposite of one of my friends from home where the dad is loaded and each kid has their own room with a plasma, DVD player, and either an xbox or playstation 2/3. I asked him and he hates it because everyone just goes to their rooms and hangs there. They never really hang out and never really have family dinners. I want to have family dinner ever night and possibly a family breakfast every morning. I know it gets hard to do as everyone gets older, but I want to do it as long as I can.
So I know what some of you may be thinking because its I get it a lot. You thinking “damn, this kid thinks about the future a lot!” and yes, that’s true. I love to think about the future abd what I will be, who I will be, and what I will have. I also like to think about how I am going to help others and show others that I am a caring person/helpful person. I want to be the person who helps other any and every way I can. But I wont blog about that again. I already talked about that in a different blog. So anyway, I would say 85% of the thinking I do in a day is about the future, and the other 15% is about what I can do today or this week to improve the future.
One other random thing is that I want to be close to my family, both distance and relationship wise, because I want them to come visit a lot. I don’t like big parties, as I said earlier, but I do like family gatherings and hanging out at the house. And I want to be close to both of my best friends for life. I want to live near Stephen and Spencer and hang out all the time until we die.
So what are you thinking right now? You thinking about your future too? I have a feeling after reading this you too will wonder where life is going to take you and who life is going to keep you close to.